That is the same reaction I still have after watching Heroes. I so was not expecting "him" to be claires father. I am in shock. Frist time a show has pulled one over on me. :P

...Since I had my last cigarette. I didn't think I was going to make it this for. I still don't. But it's not as bad today. I still have cravings and urges. In the morning is bad, and after a meal. And when someone pisses me off.

I'm avoiding people right now that smoke, Or anywhere that has smoking. I know if I'm around anyone that is lighting up, I'll break down. It's really hard. I get angry, and impatient with people. And there was a point the other day where I wanted to just snap necks. But I'm doing better...So far.

So hopefully by xmas, I'll be free of the habit. Hopefully. I just hope I don't cave in and start back up.

*sigh*

Someone give me strength to fight the cravings.

*Beats head against keyboard*


I can't do it!

The Song Meme
Stolen from ksarasara.


Step 1: Open up whatever MP3 program you use and add every song in your collection.
Step 2: Put it on random.
Step 3: Pick your favorite lines from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 4: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 5: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 6: DON'T GOOGLE THEM.

( Songs )

Btw, 9 more days!!!

I can't believe I would ever do this but....

16 MORE DAYS!!!!!! WAHOO!!!! (minus the family fighting)

I HAVE HAD IT! Fuck everybody, and fuck all this shit. I'm so sick of people backing out, people causing drama over the littlest thing. It's john and I's Wedding. Nobody fucking else's. There isn't going to be a wedding that everybody wants. FUCK IT! I'm going to the courts and getting married. I'm so sick of this shit.

Just have to tell someone. Other then my mom and honey. John bought this new cat food, It's called "Friskies Feline Favorites". My cat and any other cat I have known is/was addicted to soft food. But not to the point where they would break down the door and kill you for it. Well, this new brand of food is dry food. We(john & I) thought they wouldn't like it. But to our surprise they want to kill us for this food. I have no clue what is in it.

All I know is, I came home earlier today. And my bedroom door was shut, but misky was missing. We went in and there she is eating cat food from the bag. She bit a hole in the bag, to get to the food. Then the other cats(Bernie & Lou) ran in when we open the door, and started to attack the bag. Like we didn't feed them for months. This is the frist time I have seen cats threaten our lives for dry food. They scratch at my door at night. They beg. They attack. I'm thinking the cats have an addiction problem. I tried to see if there was crack in the mix, but no luck. Anyone has thoughts on why they would kill us to get to "dry" food? We put down soft food and a different brand of dry food, but they snub it. *Sigh* guess I'll go give them thier fix.

Yeah yeah, So I suck at journals. This isn't going to be a huge update cause it's too early. :P

Nothing new going on, trying to find a full time job instead of this stupid selling job. Wedding is may 12th. Excited about that. Just pulling my hair out on certain things. But that's usual...I guess. Got another kitty. Well cat. His name is bernie. And Bernie and Misky are now dating, odd isn't it? Well they go around doing the "I hate you get away from me, No, Wait come back. I Love you" Bit. But it's really cute. It's mostly misky playing hard to get. Damn tease.

Granddad is still ill. My mom's dad. Don't know how much time is left for him. That's it for now. I'll update next when I win the lottery or some disaster blows up in my face.

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GODDAMN FUCKERS!!!! al;kjsfda;ljksdfa;oijsdfa;dsoifjas;dljifas;dlfjiawrfwefo;ijdfbga;sldkjfasd fj;oajaoijf;awroefi;/loenwgv.....had to vent. and beat something.

I don't know why I keep these anymore, I hardly update them. Part because i'm lazy and part because I don't like people to know my business. Strange huh? Anyway, Got fired/quit in august. Got a new job about a week and a half later. I work on a dinner/entertainment cruise. It's a seasonal job. So I'll be unemployed in a few weeks, or whenever the river freezes.

Only thing that sucks about that job, is the shifts they make you do. Yeah I know, money. But my god. 24 hour shifts to 72 hour shifts. Oy! And not having a air mattress for the boat is abit hard. Got a stiff neck from sleeping on the floors there.

I also got engaged to john, in september. Our wedding date is October 14th, 2006. Been checking the prices on some stuff and nearly want to rip my hair out on it. The stupid crap is way over priced. But I'm going to do stuff very cheaply or attempt too. What else happen. Oh, got a new kitty. Actually it's johns(and he is allergic)kitty. He named her giggles. She is adorable, but misky is always going to be my baby. Guess that's all for now.

Anyone who doesn't want to hear bitching just scroll past this. I'm probably just going to copy and paste this in my other journal too, I'm lazy and don't want to type double.

~~~~~~~~~~~Bitch Post~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I HATE MY JOB! Well ex-job! Those mother fuckers. They suspended me cause I told the truth. But shelly(Evil bitch of all fucking sides) Had me suspended for 3 days. Then told me to fucking call on those 3 days or else it's a no call no show. WTF? Helllooo?!? I'm suspended. Why the fuck do I need to call in? Then she proceeded to rub the without pay suspension in my face...KNOWING that I'm struggling to pay shit etc. Whatever, I hate her, I hate that job. Fucking whore can fuck herself.

Anyway, Phyliss(main boss) was going out of town the next day, I called back the next morning or else I would be fired. And shelly was there. She told me she decided to suspend me for 2 more days. So 5 days in total. FUCK HER! I...grrrr. She'll get what she deserves in the future. It's like they get bored of the people and get rid of them. I came in early EVERY fucking day. And didnt get paid for it. I OMG! I hate her....AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! I need some asprin.

Then my computer is being a bitch, not the internet...my computer. I'm just going to wipe it clean again. Everytime I restart, It erases everything and I have to reinstall all my programs. I hate it. *sigh* I should just get to it, and fucking burn everything on disc then reformat. I'm just too lazy to do it right now. Screw it. SCREW EVERYTHING!

Guess it's time for a update, huh? Bleah! I'm too lazy to write down everything. Let's see....um...I'm going to work soon, yay! But I'm off for the next 2 days. Yippie. Oh for those who didn't know. I got a new kitty too. She is soo adorable, And she is mine. Jen got her for me about a month ago....wait let me check the papers..Yup. A month ago. Well anyway, off to get ready for hell.

.............

I feel like crap. I don't want to go to work, today. But with satan as my boss, at the moment. I don't see a way around it. Waiting for kiesha to answer her phone. I tried to leave a message for her. But she'll probably think, I'm some sicko, breathing funny on her voicemail. Eh, oh well. Called phyllis(the dark one), she was not to happy. But told me If no one shows up, I'm coming in anyway. Fine, I can work with that. I'll just make sure to kill a few people while i'm there. If I'm going to suffer, Everyone is going to suffer there. I'll make everyone sick. If I have to. Damn job!

And I can only sleep a few hours at a time, it freaking sucks. I wake up coughing and hacking. Or I wake up cause I can't breath. Damn cold. Whatever the hell this is.

I'm back, OH THANK ME! I'm back . I'm happy, I was actually back, since last night, But i forgot all about this journal. Oops!

Boo!

SARA'S HERE!!!

Woo hoo!!! Sara is finally here, I'm very very happy. :) Only thing is now, I'm very sleepy, Damn my excitedness. Oh well, I'll live. WOO HOO!!

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*snickers*

Okay, I had to take this from jen, It cracked me up. Many other's may not be so amused!